Hello,
my name is Alyona. Like everyone on the earth, I crave for happiness. Probably,
it is even pity, that
happiness is not something what you can touch, take into
the hand and keep... But when some succession of
events, where each of them
brings a bright feeling and all together they make your eyes shine, comes into
your
life, you can be sure: you are happy. I don't believe that happiness is
only the positive quiet events.
Sometimes some hurricane of emotions crushes
upon your head, carries you away and, it seems, damages your calm
life... But
also it cleans your views, releases your feelings from the rind of routine and
makes your heart beat faster and you value what you are having.
Happiness
has many faces. I love to collect in my memory
sensations of happiness. Recollection
of a summer vacation near a sea calls at a cold winter day, the sensation
of
warmth of the sun on my cheek and the taste of salty wind on my lips. And it carries
the thoughts away..
Memories of smell of barbecue reminds a merry day spent
outdoors with friends a month ago... Hearing somewhere a
familiar music makes
the heart stop beating because it is the same music of the dance with Him - my
first love..
I
love to watch how the life is moving around me, though, I prefer to take part
in this moving. If to separate the world on people who, looking at half a glass
of water, say that it is the half-empty glass, and those ones who say it is half-full,
I belong to the second part. Therefore I believe I myself create the way of my
life, I thank the God for every day, every event in my life - a good one and a
bad one, - as my successes indicate, that I am moving in a right direction, and
my faults teach me and (I hope) improve me inside. I am blessed to know what is
Love.
It
is amazing how our heart can hold such a huge quantity of various feelings for
different people! I love and respect my relatives, I love my job, I appreciate
my friends and I am soluted in love to my son. There is also love to a man, and
I have a piece of my heart for such love also... But somehow it happened that
this place is empty and my heart is longing to be filled with this love, as if
it is not complete without it. It is known, where men use they logic, there women
use intuition. My intuition tells me, that I have not to remain in a place where
I am at the moment, as I believe, my special Man is on the way to our meeting
and I have God's permission to do this way shorter. And I am doing - therefore
I am on this web-site.
A bit about me. I am a pure Ukrainian, with traditional
belief in God as an Orthodox Christian. I love listening to a music (actually
any melodic one but especially Bossa Nova), I like reading (I admire H.Kortazar,
P.Lagerquist, F.Dostoyevsky).
My
height is 160 cm and the weight is 53 kg. The date of my birth is 31st of January,
1970. It is not that I tend to follow Zodiac, but it seems, I am a typical Aquarius,
with the most of merits and demerits of this sign. I am sociable and open to new
things in life but value true time-proved friendship. I cannot live in a condition
mentally reminding a swamp: my freedom-loving nature needs free air always (and
right for the sake of this I am here now). I am considered to be persevering and
sometimes even stubborn. But, as I am also flexible, I am willing to accept a
reasonable explanation and change my point of view - just not under force, please.
I like to learn a new and am sure any individual is capable to improve and do
higher his level - just apply your strength and do not be lazy!
I
even did not notice how I have learnt English, reading
teach-yourself books
on the way to my work and back. After reading these two books, talks online (I
have a
laptop and love working with it) and having some experience in direct
talking in three years I can freely
communicate in English. Recently I started
learning German. I do not like to occupy somebody's else place in life.
That
why on graduating at a university as an economist and after one year of studying
in postgraduate course I
realized that teaching others is not my vocation and
I should do what I really love to do. My present job is an
assistant of chief-accountant
in one of academies of my city Kharkov, - do not you find, very much "women's"
job
:-). (By the way, Kharkov is the second biggest city in Ukraine after its capital
Kiev and it also was the
capital of Ukraine many years ago.)
Now about
the main thing for me, that is my pride, my sense of living - about my son. I
gave birth to Andrew in
2002. He is a very cheerful, energetic and active boy,
having an inquiring mind. He aspires to be independent
and follows his own
logic, in front of which sometimes I surrender to - really man's logic!
Maybe,
I am a bit a strict mom but I try to be both a mom and a dad for him. He allows
me to do this, although, I see, he accepts me more as a friend of him. He, with
his high energy, keeps me in a good form - mentally and physically. Though, it
is up to you to decide whether or not I look well. Just as the funny illustration
of opinion of others about me: recently a new teacher in Andrew's kindergarten
told me on seeing how we were catching up each other in their yard: "Once
you are 35, you will be unable to run like this any more". I am laughing
even now :-).
I tried many times to imagine what a Man could be, I would
desire to meet and to be with till the rest of my life.. It is very difficult
to determine, for we all are such unique! Probably, He has children too. I feel
I would love them, like I do towards my own child, as this is the natural women
quality. Maybe, He has been tired to be alone. I know we would be the best friends,
as this is the strong base of everything good in life. But I feel as my need Him
to be responsible for His acts and words, having strong life values and to have
a strong character but sensitive heart - as well as I do. As to the rest, this
is the matter of love field us to accept each other such what we are, for in love
we look by the soul, not by the eyes.
Sincerely yours, Alyona
posted
on May 4, 2008.
