My name is Elena. I am 44 years old. My photo will tell you
about my appearance. I personally think that in it I look too solemn
and holiday-like, but I just wanted to look special on that spring
day. In real life I am simpler, and look much younger, more interesting
and charming. Well, I am writing this profile not for the competition
of beauty or a satiric writer, these years are in the past, my young
years, and troubles of my life.
I am 170 cm tall and my weight is 76 kg. Does it really
matter? As people say,"Do not be born beautiful, be born happy".
Now I live with my son, he is 15. I have one more son, he is 22 and
he lives on his own. I have a good character, I am easy to deal with.
I am kind, lively, sympathetic, faithful, demanding to myself, with
a good sense of humor and some courage. I have passed a big part of
my life, but I still feel lonely, misunderstood, and I am sorry that
I have not met a man able to appreciate me, to love my sincerity,
care, faithfulness, love and understanding in this life full of cruelty,
chaos and solitude.
Try to understand me properly, I love my both sons
very much, but they become adults and I realize that I have sentenced
myself to solitude.
I got married when I was 19.
My marriage lasted for 12 years and I stayed alone in 1987, when my
sons were 10 and 3 years old. Since that time all my life has been
dedicated to my kids: educating them, providing with everything. I
had to work a lot, days and nights to be able to pay for food, clothes,
flat. I am a lawyer by profession. I graduated from the Institute
of Law and I have higher education. I do not now how I would have
survived if I had not met so kind people ready to support me.
If you love a person, you receive in return a lot
of pleasure, quietness, kind treatment and warmth, and everything
you give returns to you like a boomerang. If you love, you can not
say exactly what you love in this person, you just love him for living
together with you, looking into your eyes. But if a person does not
understand kindness, tenderness, faithfulness and tries to insult
or humiliate you, any communication is impossible. I can not understand
how you can feel superior to the person you love due to some success
you made on your own or with help of other people. You should be grateful
for everything you have achieved to the god and your destiny. And
only doing good to people and helping them with a nice word and good
actions you can achieve more and more success, happiness, health.
I have always tried to help people, sometimes just with a smile, though
my smile is a bit sad and my eyes are sorrowful, as if they have cried
a lot. But I try to be optimistic, to believe in better future and
hope that some nice things are still to come.
I have never been abroad, I think you understand why.
Books and films are the only source of getting to know a different
world.
I like keeping my home cozy, clean and neat. I do
everything myself, with my own hands, even wash as I can not afford
buying a washing machine. I do the washing up, cooking, shopping,
well, many Russian women are accustomed to it since their childhood.
Well, it is not a big strain for a Russian woman...
I dream to see all my family at a round table, laid
tastefully and originally. I love quietness, mutual understanding
and support at home and I want to have a man who will need me as I
am, in joys and troubles. In the evening we will talk, discuss the
day, tell each other about our problems, successes and difficulties.
It is a great joy to give advice, to support with a word or a glance,
to feel understood and cared about, to touch the hand of your man
with your lips or lean on his shoulder.
I love sincerity and the truth, even if it is not
pleasant. I have seen a lot of rudeness and cruelty. There were days
when I felt lost. I just had kids who needed me and a hope to find
my half some day. I want to give us a chance to meet each other and
to warm up by the flame of feelings. I do not have a strong hand of
a man, who is ready to share with me all joys and troubles of life.
But I am not pessimistic, though I am a philosopher
a little bit. I am sociable and like communicating. I like inviting
guests to my home and visiting my friends. I am fond of reading, exchanging
opinions, asking questions, thinking of future and sense of life.
Music is important to me. It calms me down, treats,
makes think about life. It can be sad and merry and depends on my
mood. I can not imagine my life without music, it fills in my lonely
soul, calms me after work when I feel only tiredness and pain.
I would like to admire beauties of nature together
with my man, to travel, to see the sea, to enjoy flowers, green leaves,
rain. I love the sea and rainy weather even more than sun, it is too
hot for my soul burnt by numerous problems. And I am so tired of solving
them alone! Where are you, my love?
It is so difficult to tell about myself without seeing
your eyes, but I did my best. I have never written so long letters,
I am used to keeping everything inside. I love listening to people
and helping them. May be, time has come to open my heart, it is like
a"soul shower".
If I touched your heart and soul and you would like
to meet me, I will be looking forward to your letter. I hope to see
you and I would like to thank you for spending so much time on reading
my profile and sharing my solitude. I can speak English a little and
I am learning it.
