I am not sure whether I am able to cope with such a complicated task
as writing about myself. That is the first time I have done that and,
frankly speaking, I doubt that it will be objective.
I will start with the simplest thing: My name is Gulnara.
I am from Naberezhnye Chelny, Tatarstan, Russia. I am 34. My star
sign is Libra, I was born on 4 October 1966. I have not been married
and have no kids, but I would like to have them. I am 159 cm tall
and my weight is 51 kg. I work at a music school, I teach playing
the piano and work with the choir.
Like every normal person I have lots of advantages
and lots of shortcomings, well, some shortcomings, let us put it like
this (you might think, that is the first time she is not being objective).
But I can assure you that I will be sincere and honest, as I consider
these two features to be the most valuable. I am ready not to pay
much attention to some weaknesses of people, but I can not fail to
notice a lie and I can not pretend having failed to notice it. I do
not like conflicts, try to avoid"sharp" situations and
I think I am good at it. My colleagues say that I am a diplomat.
I believe that failing to say everything you want
causes misunderstanding and conflicts. Only kind and honest dialogue
can help solve many problems of communication. I should say that I
am energetic, emotional and very sociable, but at the same time I
enjoy staying at home alone. At the time of solitude I think, think,
think… What about? It, probably, depends on my mood. I dream when
I feel happy, and my dreams are very different: it can be some trifle,
like a smart dress, or a big white mansion with flowers around somewhere
at the seashore. That is materialistic, but I also dream people will
never die, I think of my parents and brother and other dear people,
I dream of family happiness with a kind, decisive, generous and passionate
man, I dream of love, mutual understanding and care in my family.
I also dream of traveling all over the world (except the North, I
do not like cold). I am very fond of traveling, I have visited nearly
all corners of the former USSR and have been to Italy.
When I am sad I recall some nice moments of my life
and I wish they could come back. At such moments I tell myself,"Gulnara,
you are too young for living on your memories only!" And I feel
better and my sadness flows away from my balcony, only there I can
afford feeling sad. Also, when I am alone I do a lot of things about
the house, listening to music at the same time. I clean the flat,
cook something tasty, and so on. And sometimes I do nothing, I just
watch TV, read or speak on phone. Well, I speak a lot, but I can be
a good listener.
Well, I finish with my solitude! And I start going
out together with my friends to our favorite places, where I dance
till I nearly fall down! I am very fond of dancing, of these special
emotions and people feel enchanted watching me. I love singing (that
is a hobby number one for me), and I am really good at it. Well, do
not forget that it is my job. You may think that I am too self-confident,
no, I am just very sincere. I love been number one at some party,
feeling admired (especially by men). At the same time I like having
by my side perfectly looking people. I do not mean their beauty, they
should be stylish and exquisite and at the same time be gifted and
intellectual. It is my ideal, and after dealing with such people I
easily understand my own shortcomings and weaknesses.
I am demanding with men, but I am demanding to myself
too. I can not stand rude and casual people. Talking about an ideal
man I fully agree with a French singer Patricia Kaas: his appearance
does not matter very much. A man should have a character, I am interested
in his way of thinking, his ideas. I appreciate good manners and elegant
behavior, I am very demanding, and may be, due to it I have never
had serious affairs.
The sense of humor is very important to me, I like
jokes and joking. As a student I took part at some funny performances
and the audience laughed at me till tears appeared in their eyes.
I can not say that I enjoy been criticized, but I accept it and try
to come to some conclusions. Your"opposition" can teach
you a lot of things, I will not call them enemies, as I do not like
having enemies or being unfriendly. But I like competition, I am fond
of winning, but I can lose. I have had both. There is a very wise
saying"Your pride prevents you from falling". I am afraid
of falling and I do not want to fall.
My life is very active and dynamic. I spent most of
my time at work and it is not a strain, as I love my job. I am always
in a good mood there, I admire my small pupils for being so curious,
sometimes naughty and noisy, but always devoted. At night I sing in
a small restaurant and enjoy being listened to and applauded. In my
free time I like doing sports and going to the concerts of classical
and jazz music and to the picture gallery. I
can speak English. I learn it and I wish
I could dedicate more time to it.
I often visit my parents and brother, I love them
a lot, that is natural. Every night before I go to bed I say a prayer
asking the God to keep them happy and healthy. I am not religious,
although I believe that God hears me and protects my family from different
troubles. I am grateful to Him.
I do not know what you think of me now, but I hope,
it is not worse than I really am. Thank you for your patience and
interest in me. You can write me in English.
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